Hello Internet People,
Wow. It feels so weird to type that in for the first time in so, so long.
I've not posted in ages, and I keep telling myself it's because I've been really busy working, that I don't have time to think up an idea of what to post, or even that I've not had time to do anything worth post-able, but if I'm honest with you that's all bullshit. In all honesty, I haven't posted because I couldn't think of anything to write about, literally nothing decent would come to mind. After months of not writing because of it, it has just come to me, write about not being able to write. So that's what I'm doing.
I'm sure you've all heard of writer's block? hitting the brick wall in your mind that's been littered with graffiti saying 'Just give up' and 'at least you tried'. Well it happens to everyone, at least I hear it does, and as you know, the blogger's worst enemy, well hit me hard and took me down. The worst part of not being able to write is that it makes you feel a bit helpless, like you've lost your passion, your drive, your creativity and there's nothing you can do about it. At the end of it all, you're reading this right now aren't you? so you can get over it. all I had to do was rediscover who inspired me in the first place to write, and to make something worth reading, which in all fairness may not be this. This post is one of those things you have to do, it's like a stepping stone back into it, like dipping your toe back into the water. And knowing that fully, I apologise if it ends up being a waste of your time.
Here's what really gets me though, all the effort. People who write on blogs, or record vlogs, or whatever feel a lot of pressure to create something worth viewing, and sometimes that makes things a lot harder. For instance, sometimes, after watching a great film or hearing an amazing song, I want to write a blog post about it. I want to praise it for everything good it's done, from the way it made me think to the way it has been pioneering in some way - but I can't. If you haven't seen the film or heard the song, then how can you understand what I'm talking about? and then why should you read something that you have no view on at all, or any connection to the substance in the post? You see, although I cant see you, blogging isn't a one sided thing, it relies on you guys, to read the posts and react to them in some way, otherwise they're pointless and have no real reason to have been posted in the first place. But nowadays, writing something of substance has to be broader, more like able and relatable so that anyone out there cant read and understand and 'subscribe' to a relationship with the particular blogger's posts. If you make no effort to make it universal, then it's going to be hard to get people to read, to respond and to want you to continue posting. And that's my problem - I'm overthinking it. I need to go back to the old ways of 'top 5's' and 'collabs' instead of not writing purely because I refuse to think of anything like that.
So long story short, I'm sorry for being gone for so long.
Thanks for sticking around guys,
Tom x
