HOMOSEXUALITY & BEING GAY PT.1

Hello Internet People,

(Yes I've been gone a while, but let's put that behind us right now, because I want to talk about some important things)

 Recently I've been thinking of and witnessing a few things that have really shaken me and it's just really made me feel pretty shitty, and the worst thing is, they are all related to sexuality. As you can tell from previous posts, I am a gay man and if you didn't know - it took me 18 years to accept who I was. After years of being in denial, believe me it's one of the hardest things people have to go through, because you really do not know what's going to happen when you stand up and announce who you are to the world. When people aren't supportive of what you went through, it's a hard thing to live with, and that's mainly what I want to talk about today.

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Firstly, if you have been living under a rock, you might not know that YouTube star Connor Franta, who has already had a confusing enough year after departing from the seemingly unstoppable collab channel O2L, recently released a video to his main channel on YouTube in which he came out to his entire following, and it's shocked a lot of people. I have to say that in fairness, it was no surprise to me, but it was amazing to see the reaction he was given. At the end of the day, the courage it took for him to do that was immense and I am so very proud of him for doing so. Unfortunately, what was upsetting about it is that a minority of people have reacted badly about it. If those ignorant, one minded people just took a second to realise it isn't a choice, and if you watch Connor's video (link here), you'll see him explain that. Like he says in the video, he tried to date girls and just pretend, but inside he knew that in the end that is just who he is. If you want to discriminate then just imagine if you were going through it first and ask yourself - how would you want to be treated?

Additionally, I've had people say things to me recently about my sexuality or things aimed at me because of it and it's really gotten my tired and upset. Most of you have probably read my Blog before and you'll know that I'm a strong willed, loud mouthed person, but even though they were just small things people have done or said, it all adds up and its sort of breaking me down. For example, I was talking with a few friends and I held onto who I thought was my closest mate's shoulder to get up off the chair and he turns to me and says 'can you stop touching me, you're always touching me and it creeps me out'. bear in mind I'm a very physical conversationalist, so ill give you a soft punch in the arm if I ask how you are or give you a pat on the back if I'm saying goodbye. Anyway I just ignored it and saw it as banter,until I come back from the toilets and he's purposely swapped seats with someone else. now that hurts. If you really think I'm hitting on you do you really think I'd take 4 months to try something? And what's irritating is that now whenever we see each other, there's always someone else there that he's invited as well, to clearly put in between us. I'm a lad's lad, so when I'm getting accused of trying it on with one of my lad mates its really fucking annoying, just because I'm gay doesn't mean i want every lad I talk to, okay?

At the end of the day, just because you're gay doesn't mean that's all that you are. You are not and never will be just a stereotype, you are good person, who just wants to be happy and that's what matters.

PERSON OF THE WEEK

Will be a bumper catch up special with about 10 people I would have put as my persons of the week in the time that I've been gone!

But seriously, I know this has been a while and I know that this is a bit of a shitty post but I felt the need to get it off my chest. Also sorry about being gone for so long, but also thanks for sticking with me, I've been working a lot and I haven't had the time to post. I've still been looking at the site and I've seen the amount of you that have come on to check it and that's just amazing to me! thank you guys so much, I love you and I hope you enjoy the tweaks I did to make the site a bit better. See you next time x